ugh I hate when it gets so cold. it puts me in the worst mood all the time :(( I don’t really want to rush anything but I need spring and warmth. this weather makes me think of my dad so much, I don’t know how he does it. the things he does for the family, he just deserves the best 

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’d be totally okay if where I lived there was no winter. I’m so done with wearing layers and cold. Its not even that cold yet and I’m always cold. ugh I’m such a summer dress kind of girl. I don’t want to rush time but really I just hate being cold. 

ahh the weekend is going to be so nice. thank god this week is over! idk lately I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed by everything. its just really scary trying to plan your future. I think it really got to me this time, but I feel good about my decision :)) 

whoever said college was the “best time of your life” must have dropped out or something. Its only the beginning and I already feel like there are so many things to do and even more decisions to make. Seriously I wish someone could tell me the right thing to do. I’m so wish washy right now. I just don’t know!!! ahh! 

I’d definitely consider today a successful Saturday. I went apartment viewing with my lovely lovely girl becca! its so exciting looking for a place to call our own for next fall. it’ll be our little home. I’m just so ready to get away from the average college student’s obnoxious, messy lifestyle. I just want a quiet and cute place to relax and study and I think we’ve found that spot! :)

I can’t believe how much I miss home this time around. I feel like no matter how old I get and wherever I go, there is just no place like home. my family means so much to me, ah I love them.

it wasn’t too bad but thats only because chem was cancelled. I am literally terrified of this class :\ I just feel like this semester is going to be so much more difficult than the last, but I just got to stay positive and remember that I’ll get through it just like I always do. ugh so much easier said than done! 

wow I forgot how much this blows. I hate it, what makes things even more depressing is me staring at my bare christmas tree in the other room ughhh. lets fast forward through winter please :(

ugh I’m really sad right now. why am I always an emotional mess.. ugh :(( 

it would be so much easier for me to go to school closer so I could be with my loved ones more. I don’t regret anything but its always so hard to leave. I love the warm and comforting feeling of being with some of the most important people to me.